“Apparently adrenaline makes every six seconds feel like a single second, so time collapses.” Alicia’s English, British-accented, is immaculate, her voice low and conspiratorial.
Though a reserve prevails in her demeanor, there seems always to be the threat of giddiness, muted by a natural air of gravity.
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It took another six years to cobble together the financing.
“This was not a film of the ‘now’ when we started making it,” Alicia explains, “and it’s frankly amazing to think of the cultural change that has taken place since we started.
By the time she completed the three-year ballet program in Stockholm, acting had become her passion.
“I figured I’d be a local actress, like my mum was,” she says.
Now the moment had arrived.“I’m all nerves,” she said, her teeth chattering softly.
“I think I never really believed we’d have to go through with this.” Then she sank to the floor of the breakfast room and, while I made us coffee, gathered my two dogs into her lap as if desperate for the solace of something terrestrial. “It’s my mum,” she said, laughing nervously, “calling to make sure I’m not going to die.”After some wan assurances in Swedish and a double espresso, we drove to the desert, suited up, boarded a plane whose blunt nose had been painted with shark’s teeth, and jumped.“I have no recollection of that free fall,” she says a couple of hours later, over a Thai lunch in Silver Lake, the Eastside neighborhood where a number of her old friends from Stockholm, writers and musicians mainly, are living on a sort of expat Scandinavian commune.But I think it’s important to remember that the issues Lili encountered 100 years ago are still issues.You read the statistics about how trans people are physically and psychologically abused, how they are discriminated against at work.On-screen Alicia is at once steely and fragile, world-weary and childlike.At times she suggests a less mischievous Anna Karina, Godard’s muse, but mostly she resembles no one at all. I suppose I was expecting a suited chauffeur with a joyless expression to match my own, his starlet cargo waiting behind tinted windows.